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. Monday, August 18 ♥

haiz. i feel so dead.
i wanna be dead.
i feel like dying.
i have no mood.
i wish i cud run..
run all de way to de beach..
in de rain.. and scream..
while im running..
den reach alr.. kill myself..
and the world will be so peaceful..
haiz.. one thing i wan now..
i wan ______ to tok to me..
right now wen im feeling so down..
______ have de key to my heart..
______ is de one det can cheer me up..
but well.. its okay..
im being patient..
im waiting..
for something det will nvr come true..
stupid lah me..
but im not gonna give in..
i dont care..
im not gonna give in to ppl anymore..
im gonna learn to make a stand for myself..
and i will..
lets see how long i can last like this..
haiz..

so, today was actually a day full of laughters..
but somehow, someting just made me hev no mood.
im not blaming anyone for it, serious.
so lets talk abt de day.
in de morning, assembly, some funny stuffs happen.
like, erm, coz shuya siting in front of me,
den wen hafsah come, he fone suddenly slip out sia.
wah, luck hafsah nvr see. den gt de sound summore. -.-
den de 1b pupils keep toking..
den gt two tcher handling dem..
i dunno their names uhh. anw,
their convo :
tcher1 : haiya, see, now dey sec 1 only, so noisy like this.
tcher2 : yah, later wen sec 2, 3 and older, sure like monsters..
(monsters?!?! lol. me and syakirah lughing alr lah.)
tcher1 : yah, dne later put dem in cage. monsters..
(den dey walk away.)
den funny part is de monster lah. lol.
okay nvm, den after det gt maths..
1 hour. mr ___ was like toking abt de revision paper,
which is like kinda thick, but den i dun bother to do.
didnt even start on anything yet. he went thru de answers.
while i try on my own. den sya also nvr do. gerek uh.
den soon, dah malas. den me and sya tok tok. abt stuffs.
den recess. smtg made me no mood.
den, i just kept quiet. even kashvin say i having mood swing.
coz just now before recess so happy, after recess liek so dead.
im like so no mood and sleepy.
music/lit, shit lah. i no mood, so just kept quiet. and sya's sleepy,
so we two just kept quiet. den de tcher realise we so quiet.
good lah. we quiet, u ask us to join in de grp discussion,
den wen we noisy, u tell us keep quiet. very smart indeed.
den gt history. fcuk luh tcher. do source based wadevr shit qn.
den ask me write de answer on de board. u tink i kno how to do isit ??
shit lah. den i write crap on de board. and its wrong. how great.
den wadevr uh. science, nth much. keep bargaining wif mr tang.
find mr tang de nicest tcher for de day. :D
den keep asking for hints for commont test.
best. den he tok abt i dun kno wad, acid and alkaline.
and de wadevr shit lah. u tink i understand isit ? aiyoo.
den i learn some alien language.
like, benzoic, den de litmus paper. and wadevr shit else lah.
lucky nvr come out exam dis chapter.
and den, wrote de word hyroxide like a million times, on de notes.
den wadevr uh. next english.
boring lah. hev to do de compo..
so did it.. den sya gt warning for using her fone.
den blahblah. and of sch.
mood is up. great.
den stuffs happen.
skip skip.
took 17 to whitesands.
shrieked in de bus coz of det usual thing.
den reach dere, bought fries, den eat.
den walk ard, den syakirah bought atiqah her present.
den went to macs again, eat again. lol.
and oh, some funny stuffs happen.
dere's a whole list.
sry for being mean ppl.
didnt mean to but its just damn damn funny.

- de guy's hair like kena electric shock.
- det fat person.
- den de gal wif de mouth like det.. > :0
- den de lady wif none.
- den another wif double.
- den syakirah queing at de place where ppl is supposed to take their meal.
>pai seh lah syakirah ! herbbbbbbb !
- den abt how syakirah divide de burger.
> wait, u kno anot how. let me tell u how. she like break it into half, like, one piece of meat, one bread, instead of half half of de whole thing, so like de meat is in de middle of 2 pieces of half bread. funny.
- den we asked for 2 curry sauce but ended up getting 2 barbecue sauce. lol.
- den abt de someting det happened ytd nite. lol.
- den gt this stupid thing on de table, which sya go touch. eeeeeeeewww. haha.
- den de balloon thing.
- and det guy. some unknown guy. haha.

nvm if u dun understand or find those things funny.
u gotta be in our shoes den u will kno how funny it is.
so maybe oni me and sya knows wad it all means.
den blahblah.
took 17 home. and on de way, sya's dad called.
but she didnt wanna answer.
so her fone get confiscated.
poor ting sia. ):
den reach home like before 5.
den went online.
stuffs happen yet again.
and blahblah.
nth much u all need to kno.
den like 7 plus, i left de comp.
coz i cant take it alr. i just wanna run away frm evrything.
and im feeling sick.
told mum det.
hopefully she say i dun need go ngaji.
but den, she was like asking me to eat medicine den go..
i dun wan lahh ! fuck sia ! u understand anot ! i no mood !
dun wan go ! my problem rite !
den rain so heavily.
i told her: u see lahh ! its raining so heavily, den u wan me go.
later i half way walking den later i die get struck by thunder or lightning.
how ??
den she say : who ask u to say det. stop saying nonsense. just eat medicine den go.
den wadevr lah. i take my time eat, go in my room, den just keep quiet.
in de end i nvr go.
wadevr man.
den blahblah.
wahh, im controlling myself..
heh.
actually i edited pics just now, half way,
but den i no mood, den stop.
den now lazyyy wan continue.
so maybe sometime next few days.
okay, bye.

somehow, my mood is better now. (:
& see ! i survived wifout chatting wif ______ ! xD

With Love ♥ 7:48 PM