It's all her stories ♥

. Friday, October 24 ♥

hello there.

things are superb different now.
a year gone past like so fast ?
and like ard 2 more months and its gonna be a new year.
a new year with me and friends separated.
like how can i live like det ?

and results are like not really good.
its isnt wad my family expected from me.
and my report book's in my bag.
not intenting to show it to anyone in my family.
but maybe the one who understands me most, kak asmah .
shall wait till she come then.
and im really scared of the punishments im gonna get,
coz i fcukingly failed det stupid historyyyyy,
since like de first semester, till end of year.
darrn. i hate looking at my report book.
it just sucks muchh.

and guess i gotta leave de comp soon ?
or maybe i shall edit some pictures for abang fendy's foto album.
and i still owe him a signage/poster i promise to design for him,
for his wedding. -180109- i so cant wait for it.
coz dear frenns are gonna be invited. :D

this morning, mum alr told me to clear up my table,
clean my messy room, and keep my stuffs which are lying ard de house.
and abg also ask me to buck up on my basic maths syllabus,
since he knew i didnt quite pay attention in class.
and dets what im gonna do. insyaallah i will revise on it.
so maybe like petang today, tomorrow, sunday & monday,
im gonna complete those tasks.
so that after det, i can like relax and enjoy a little.

i cant be too happy wif wad i hev now.
i've been like so suckish.
so many mistakes done.
and later after one problem's solved,
another will pop up.
its like forever im gonna make mistakes.
im not perfect.
and i guess i cant ever be.
just look at my situation now.
how muchh it sucks.

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will i ever make it up, to her ?
coz i guess the hurt's deep enough.
i dont wanna hurt her anymore.
evrytime i hurt her, i'll say im sorry.
then after that, i'll come up with another mistake.
and another sorry.
till now, the sorry's coming from me.
will i ever end the sorry ?
and now i don't think my sorry's gonna work.
she wont trust me with my sorrys and words already i guess.
coz its too much.
i know i've hurt her alot.
and i don't know how to undo them.
wait, the hurt cant be undone.
but maybe do something else ?
and that something is what i don't know what.
i told you before, that i suck at thinking of what i should do after i did something wrong.
i shall think, think, think. i shall.
but for now, after talking to her, i don't think it makes things better ?
it's just gonna be the same till i think of that something.
and what i said's usually wrong ?
i don't know.
and at times, maybe i dont know what im doing.
too into other things.
to youuu.. (you know who you are.)
just to let you know, you contributed into making me who i am today.
its been alot of years since i know you.
you know alot about me.
and you helped me when i have problems wif others.
without you being there for me,
maybe all my that problems wont be solved yet.
i appreciated those times.
i missed those times.
i wish we could be like before.
thank you for evrything.

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i want to go back to the past, where everything's okay.
then start from there. from where i went wrong.
i would undo whats wrong, and do whats right.
then, maybe it wont be this way.

but this is just me.
just me, a person who hates to make mistake,
but always does.

and now, i just finished talking to abg zain.
he called, to ask abt de kids, for 2 mins.
and den, like 10 minutes, he will talk abt me, and my personal life.
he always make me realise things.
see the wonderful family i got ?
people always caring for me.
and i guess my family knows really alot abt me and him.
from a magical spell i think ?!
coz they know all these from god knows where.
but thanks alot to everyone.
especailly to abang zain and kak asmahh.
appreciate all those advices you gave me, from then, till now.
thank youu.

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anywayys.
today, was nothing muchh.
yesterday was boringg.
slept at like 7.30, den woke up at 9.
den did stuffs.
den slept back at 10.30pm, till just now, 11.30am.
and how many hours is that ?
den like woke up a few times, coz like nobody answered de fone,
so i had to. den im like sleep-talking.
den i asked mum to buy me sausage mcmuffin wif eggs from mac.
or smtg like det. and bubble teaa.
coz deyy all go 201 market dere.
den i was woken up at 11.30, asking me to eat my breakfast/lunchh.
so yeah, ate, den bathed. 8-0
den used de comp, till noww.
so yeahh.
guess im gonna do wad im supposed to.
today wont be going out.
tmr, yeahh maybe ?
sundayy, also will i guess ?
so yerp.

and guess im sick already now.
with slight fever, running nose, and feeling sooo coldd..
and and hev like headachee noww..
my life's sooo complicatedd..
ohh welll.

enoughhh of myy crappps.
and now i inherited de perangai cam Ronald Duck from someone.
and my original perangai like B J.
and B J from Barney is officially my best fren. (:

ohh yeahhh.
not to forget..

221008 is Loveeeedddd !

second. and still counting.
and its another memorablee dayyy.
ilytm.
:DDD

okay done.
byebye.

i love you.

With Love ♥ 1:47 PM